damn, those days without school are really boring.
like having nothing to do at hostel.
staying the whole day only sleeping and eating.
i should find something more productive to do.

now training is the only interesting in my whole day schedule
luckily we have training the whole week or else i will be bored to death.
i really really wanna improve lah!

for the whole day i finished one manga series.
don't know why i started to read those romantic comedy manga again.
this one is also quite retarded.
but it was interesting enough to keep me occupied for one whole day

my internet is really really annoying.
seriously it sucks
it used to be quite okay, but these days it is having a lot of problems.
and it pisses me off.

got some weird feeling
dunno how to describe it
it is not bad, but not a good one either.
man, i'm being sentimental.
maybe it's because i'm too old.

and that makes me wonder who i will be in the future.
maybe a miser who knows nothing except for money.
a boring office worker who reluctantly does his work everyday to keep himself alive.
or the best, i will be a househusband who spends my whole day playing with my kids and keeping the house clean.
will it be happy, or not?
i cannot tell
but i like the househusband part.
i can think up of interesting ideas.
but i lack the determination to finish what i start

i always end up staying in one place.
fortunately the place i'm staying in is quite nice =)
but the grass is greener on the other side
never mind it, i'm not eating grass.
i'm lost and dunno what to do.
then go online and search for the walk-through lah.
i'm not good enough.
the standard of "enough" is too high!
i'm a bad person.
"bad" is only relative, and you are moving in relation to the sun, according to theory of relativity or whatsoever, so don't digress.
i want to change myself.
ehh, you are nearly 18 but you don't know how to change clothes yourself? are you a kid??

i think i'm really good at making up excuses.