yay.
have been playing with a new program the whole morning.
AV MP3 Player Morpher 4.
So damn cool :)
everyone should go and try this!
can tweak song, and do all kinds of stuff :)
and totally free :)
YO!

Recently i just found myself very troubled.
By some very random and ambiguous things.
I was happy and i was unhappy.
I didnt know what would be coming of me.
nah.

Maybe i was influenced by ppl.
and a lot of ppl at the same time.
and i was too easily influenced.
haizz.
it made me feel troubled.
the way ppl think.
and it left me unsure.
of what i should do.

Ppl around me are complex and complicated.
they made me feel doubtful.
if the way i treated them was correct.
if the way i talked to them was correct.
if the things i talked to them were correct.
troublesome.
from simple things.
to complex things.
and now i could not tell if i understood them.

the things that troubled me seemed very stupid.
one guy, who trained himself like mad, and very very stubborn.
i tried to talk to him, and asked others to tell him.
but he ignored all the things i said.
i dont want him to overexert himself.
i advised him to moderate his damn stupid training schedule, but my words never reached him.
a few guys, very very complicated.
they appeared in 1 way, they talked in a different way, and they acted in another way.
and i failed to understand them.
when i tried to show my concern, they rejected me with the words "nothing" or some stupid things to divert the topic away.
my roommate, about to go back to his hometown.
he had to choose between his hometown and singapore, and his family forced him to go back.
and he was such a good roommate.
it made me feel powerless.
when i couldnt do anything to help my friends.
the things that beyond my power, these are just too many.

a few days ago, i chatted with my old friends.
one girl, she said she still felt familiar,when we havent talked for, dunno how many months.
it hurt me again.
for the way i acted.
spending too little time for my own friends.
it felt like betraying them.
and they still considered me a good friend.
aww.

another one, coming from a guy.
my secondary school friend.
asked him to do one thing, and he did it for me.
and the words i got back, it made me wonder a lot.
yah. i am a bad friend.
very insincere.
very forgetful.
...

then my family.
i talked with them quite little.
while i knew that my parents are very lonely at home.
since i and my sister won't be coming back soon.
and seeing how dearly they loved me.
making me realize how bad i was.
my sister. far away.
i won't see her for next two years.
and when i saw her tears when she waved to me.
i knew that i was really really really bad.

..

for some others.
i feel that i'm irritating them.
words from my mouth are bad words.
i have been talking sarcastically for so long and i forgot how to speak properly.
and it feels awkward, when you talk to others and they don't show the same enthusiasm as you do.
and it should not be their faults.
and i think myself to be an irritating one.
...

don't know what i can do.
nah. hope those feelings of despair will disappear soon.
i want to write all those memories.
so that it would remind me again of how bad i was.
actually it is still what i am
i want to change
but where to start.
and how to start
i need inspiration
...

Found something interesting on the net.

Waiter, this soup tastes funny ?
Then why aren't you laughing !

Waiter, what's this fly doing in my soup ? It looks like it's learning to swim sir

Waiter, there is a small slug in this lettuce I'm sorry sir, would you like me to get you a bigger one ?

Waiter, do you have frogs legs ? No sir, I've always walked like this.

Waiter, there's a caterpillar on my salad Don't worry sir, there is no extra charge.

Waiter, there is a fly in my soup ? Don't worry sir that spider on your bread will soon get him !

Waiter, this coffee is terrible, it tastes like earth ! Yes sir, it was ground yesterday !

Waiter, bring me something to eat and make it snappy How about a crocodile sandwich sir !

Waiter, is there soup on the menu ? No, madam I wiped it off ! Waiter, there is a spider on my plate, send me the manager ! That's no good, he's scared of them too ! Waiter, do you serve snails ! Sit down, sir, we serve anyone ! Waiter, do you have frogs legs ! Yes sir Well hop off into the kitchen and bring my meal then please ! Waiter, are there snails on the menu ! Yes sir, they must have escaped from the kitchen ! Waiter, there is a beetle in my soup ! Sorry sir, we're out of flies today ! Waiter, there is a mosquito in my soup ! Don't worry sir, they don't eat much ! Waiter, there is a dead fly in my soup ! Yes sir, it's the heat that kills them ! Waiter, there is a fly in the butter ! Yes sir, it's a butterfly! Waiter, there is fly in my soup ! Don't worry I'll call the animal sanctuary ! Waiter, there is a bee in my alphabet soup ! Yes sir, and I'm sure there is an A, C and all the other letters too ! Waiter, there are two flies in my soup ! That's alright sir, have the extra one on me ! Waiter, what is this spider doing in my soup ! Drowning by the look of it sir ! Waiter, there is a dead fly in my soup ! Oh no, who will look after his family ! Waiter, what is this cockroach doing on my ice cream sundae ? Skiing sir ! Waiter, there is fly in my soup ! Don't worry madam, go ahead and eat it, there are plenty more ! Waiter, there is a dead fly swimming in my soup ! Don't be silly, dead flies can't swim ! Waiter, there are two flies in my soup ! That's alright sir, have the extra one on me ! Waiter, there is a fly in my bean soup ! Don't worry sir I'll fish him out and exchange it for a bean ! Waiter, there is a slug in my salad ! Shhh, or everyone will want one ! Waiter, there is a dead fly in my soup ! No its not, it's a piece of dirt that looks like one ! Waiter, there is a frog in my soup ! Don't worry sir there isn't enough there to drown him ! Waiter, why is there a fly in my ice cream ? Perhaps he likes winter sports ! Waiter, can you get rid of this fly in my starter ! I can't do that sir, he's not had his main course yet ! Waiter, what is this bug doing on my wives shoulder! I don't know - friendly thing isn't he ! Waiter, there is a fly in my soup ! Just you wait until you see the main course !

OK i have a funny life.

A nice weekend.
friday ended quite late, at 6++.
we wanted to watch a movie, but then all the nice movies were at 12am or 1am.o_O
then went for a dinner.
cris was damn high that evening.
next to our table was a table with six vietnameses.
then cris started using some not-so-dignified language.
we tried to calm him down.
but he just kept talking.
then when they stood up and went away.
cris made some hilarious comment.
the content was M18 so people dun be curious.
then stayed up until 1 to sing happy birthday to Minh and Phong
haha my two nice fellas, happy birthday.

tao biết chúng mày đã lớn rồi, hiểu ra được nhiều điều rồi. 17 tuổi là năm đẹp nhất của đời người. hy vọng chúng mày sẽ làm được điều gì đó có ích, để ngày nào đó nhìn lại quãng đời tuổi trẻ mày ko cảm thấy vô nghĩa.
LOL

saturday.
finally got a chance to watch movie
:)
i watched batman , at last.
ok. but batman was too ordinary..
and the plot was a bit unrealistic.
but the moviewas nice :)
enjoyed it.
then we splited up.
too tired so i decided to go back.
i wanted a nice sleep at home.
but then fell asleep on the bus.
had to walk back.
then all the sleepiness was all gone.
so i decided to have a haircut.
haha feel quite uncomfortable.
and i was very impressed.
for the first time, jaesung recognized my haircut in less than one day.
the evening was a stupid intra-room rubik competition =)
jae sung owned us.
but the competition was entertaining sia.

sunday.
morning passed by without any major events that worth mentioning.
lunch was okay.
then i went and played ping pong with Minh.
haha got an uncle and his twin boys.
they challenged us to play.
that was fun, but i prefer playing with Minh.
because he's good.
then about 5 we went back hostel.
because of the rain so we could not play soccer.
that's good. if i played soccer i would faint at the court.
but if i saw a soccer ball then i could not restrain myself.
so pathetic.

yo, tmr i will meet my best friend ever !
miss her a lot :)


and here are pictures of two birthday boys.

i'm happy!
for the hectic school days.
for the hellish training
for the smo result.
for my sister.
want to accomplish something more.
to show my capabilities.

wheeee!!

School is too hard for me to describe in words.
School means long tedious boring tiring torturous lessons that make my life miserable
School means friends which make my life worthwhile.
School means those dreaded homework that drains all the energy out of my body
School means the endless talks about some meaningless stuffs that keeps me cheerful and lively all days.
School means me waking up early everyday, just to prepare for it.
School means trainings, which are always fun, mostly the post-training kicking session :)
School means projects that I despise, tiring and troublesome.
School means stupid conversations that entertain me and bring smiles to people's faces.
School means those tests that I can never do well, but just preferably everything ;)
Then what do I go to school for?
Girls lah, of course.

haha today was fun.
captain ball with class was always fun.
soccer was fun.
lunch was fun.
the king and i was fun.
so it means today was a fun day =)

but i'm drained.
sorry homework, i see you tmr =)

It's the long-awaited intra-boarding school street soccer tournament.
wah, it's one year alr, since the last tournament, we played with our seniors in the last match.
missed that feeling, competing in a competition, not only for the prize, but for the love i hold for it.
i love my teammates, and i love soccer.
i hold dear in my heart the feeling on the court, when i run for the ball, get past somebody and make a good pass for my teammate.
haha...

we did not even train or do anything before the tournament.
every time i saw anyone playing soccer i just wanna join in.
not only soccer, but also tennis, basketball, and even captain ball.
all add up, and i joined this tournament with a few injuries in my legs, not to mention the old ones which i dunno when it will heal at this rate.
nah, still better than my friends lol.
Nghia had some problem with his toe.
Minh's legs were not very well.
Quang's feet haven't healed neither.

we had to play the first two match consecutively.
wah, the first one was really a waste, i felt like we could have done a lot better.
then had one stupid draw, that no one would like to have.
the second was a match with the people in soccer.
didnt like what alan did, inviting those soccer boys that were not living in the hostel.
they were just freaking strong and skilled, but we put up a good fight :)
then one more draw.
had a lots of time to rest until the next round.
then we stayed and watched all the matches.
Linh, the great grand senior also came back.
he was still the same as the Linh i knew a few months ago.
and Linh and Phong's team did quite well, being the first in the group.
then they were going to meet us in the afternoon match.

having lunch at poolside.
having lunch with lots of friends were always great.
and it was better with nice food =)

the afternoon matches started at 1pm.
damn sleepy sia, after eating then no one would want to play, trust me.
then we played with Phong's team.
haha they were quite good, and that made me nervous a lot.
but finally we managed to win, thanks to good effort from everyone.
Quang's shooting was just so nice, i think i should learn some from him leh ^^
and the final match was between us and the NJC soccer team (again)
that was expected , their team was really a formidable opponent.
but we put up a good fight.
having a good first half, 0-0 at the break.
but some unwanted blunders happened, and finally we lost 3-1.
and we got 1st runner-up

that's good guys!
we showed them what our team got.
but we had to sacrifice a few things.
Minh and Nghia had a hard time walking properly.
Cris got an injury on his arm.

nah.
good effort pays off.
whatever things, i know i will love my team =)


Quang, Nghia, Minh, Cris, Tung, Quyen and me!!!
altogether, we are good friends!
and we make a good team!
and you should know that i love you all, my dear friends!