I just felt so relieved.
got back LA essay. my two-thousand-nine-hundred-ninety-nine-word essay got 52/90
not too bad.
got 3.5/10 for the ending.
i knew it sucked.
should have elaborated a little more.
anyway, should applaud myself for passing.

went back early and slacked until 5
then played soccer until 8.
intended to keep my legs and just be a keeper.
but i got excited and started playing like mad.
now my feet hurt a bit.
can run tmr, still

i became quite unfathomable recently.
just remembered a lame joke and started laughing maniacally
and started entertaining myself with a very lame-ish shoujo manga

how sad.

Currently watching : Clannad, Bamboo Blade.
Currently reading : Nothing, just waiting for new chapters of old series.
Currently waiting for : UBW translation, something to read
Currently listening : Dango Daikazoku( 3 months alr, it just sticks in my head), Chiisana Tenohira.
Currently playing : Dota, Warbook(lol_lol)
Wants : get better in speaking, get stronger, gain weight,learn jap...
Needs : study for ass week, prepare to greet mum and dad.
Aims : get A+ for Chem and Physics, i was frustrated with last year result.

Feeling really high after a tough school day.
2 free periods, IH presentation, lunch, math and chem spa.
IH presentation has finished.
Chem practical also.
I actually enjoyed today very much.

I found out that i have become very very extremely lame recently.
during the free periods i got into a meaningless debate between two people who both claimed that they are lame but they argued to settle who is more lame.
so really lame.
ih presentation.
i was okay lah. never mind, i think that's enough to pass.
and the other two groups were good.
the video was funny, the couple went to a place again and again and again, their outfit remained the same blah blah blah.
i was lmao.
lunch break.
got into an even lamer discussion.
about the archenemy of Lina Inverse
we got a male hero named Anil with a skill named Snakemaster which do some kind of water damage, and the ulti is Anugal Dagger.
It started just because Tung went high and told us about the inverse of 70cents is million dollars.
Argh how lame i have become.
Chem practical was ok.
i got a very very very very very very very very very very very very light pink after titration.
i got nothing to do so i added some more NaOH and got a dark pink colour.
and then i felt bored with pink so i added in some more HCl.
After that I continued to add in some more water and NaOH.
Just cos the SPA was just so damn easy.

Went back straight to the hostel.
And write this blog.
Now it's time for some sleep!

Ya, today is Chinese new year.
It's 2 in the morning and I'm awake, inside my room, writing this blog entry.
It's really lonely you know.
the second year that i have to spend my Chinese new year in Singapore.
Yes, here, i have my friends, but it could not waiver the loneliness.

Singapore, largely influenced by the Chinese culture, and the people celebrate CNY as one of the biggest in the year
Yet, it just feels different.
It just making me remember my hometown more than ever.
If I were in Vietnam right now, what would I do?

I used to be always eager for the CNY back there in Vietnam. A fortnight before the holiday, the school had already been all excited, and we just couldnt concentrate in study anymore. The teachers werent much different, they were much nicer, and they let us play, as it was pointless if no one wanted to study.
We had about 2 weeks for the holiday. I remembered every year, my family was all busy preparing for the holiday.
Mom and Sis would be out like all day, shopping like crazy, buying all kinds of stuff, just for the sake of buying.
The cold weather was also very nice. Only around 10 degree but,it was great, playing all day but not even a drop of sweat.
It was also helping my appetite. My mom homemade delicious food seemed even better then normal, and I was eating like crazy.
Dad would also be busy decorating the house.
He would go and buy kumquat tree and cherry blossom, as to decorate the house in a traditional way. He had a love of those kinds of ornamental plants, but he would never the time taking care of them, so he only bought them for the new year celebration.
He had a strange habit of rearranging furniture for the holiday: I never had two years consecutive during which the living room remained the same.
It had good impacts anyway: life would not be fun if it was repetitive and predictable.

The last day of the old year, we had a big family reunion dinner. the whole big family would gather in my house, and my relatives would come and stay for like half a day. we were just chatting and talking about all nonsensical things that we came up with. after that, my family would finish cleaning the house. resting , we just watched some tv show and waited until 11pm. at that time, my family would go out somewhere to watch the firework.
it would be crowded near the firework, we take a good place and sit on the lawn, looking at the sky for the firework. 30 minute of firework, and all the crowd would stop talking and head up to the sky, enjoy the show. When the last shot was fired, we would turn to the others, and wishing them a very happy new year, no matter if we know them or not.
My family would then slowly go back home. we would wish my grandmother a very good year and talked to her a bit, and then we went to my grandfather(from my mother side). There I would meet my aunts and uncles, and we wish others good luck for the new year.
For 2 or 3 days, we would go visit our relatives and wish them the best for their new year.
Life passed by slowly, but we enjoyed the pace of living.

Now i'm in a different country, just 3-and-a-half-hour flight far from my hometown.
Somehow, it makes me feel weird.
it is not even cold, so that we could squeeze in our blankets and watch the tv together.
i could never seen the view of hundreds of kumquat trees, a mass of orange and green, or hundreds of cherry blossom tree, full flowered, amongst the noises of people who were discussing the price.
i could not enjoy my mom homemade food, which i acknowledged as one of the best that i have ever eaten.
i could not be able to help out my parents for the preparation.
i could not enjoy the warmth and the happiness of the people in the new year's day.




I am feeling a little homesick.
My friends are also feeling homesick.
but whatsoever, we have already been prepared, as we decided to come here.
nevertheless, i miss my home much.
just looking forward to going home( even though i don't know when)



It would be nice if life change like that, slowly but surely, while seemingly unchanged from day to day
...

It feels like sunshine has come back into my life.
At least the FPS was finished. I'm aware that my pronunciation sucked, but who cares. I'm free from LA, at least for now.
GC turned into a class cleaning session. I was really surprised how clean the windows and the fans were. Maybe I will strive to be a cleaner someday.
Maths. Got called to the board. I was telling Tung that's I'm going to die if i am called; and as I just finished my sentence, Ms Ng appeared with the marker and called me. If it wasn't the last two questions, maybe I could do it. And who the hell in the world would want to know the derivatives of those functions anyway? If i was to encounter those functions in a problem, i would happily skip that question and go to the next one. Anyway, thank you Ms Ng, i enjoyed the chocolate.
I had to go for counseling with the class. It was my free period!!! but it was fun though. We talked about lots of crappy things. When the counselor asked about the contribution in group work, somehow i felt a little guilty deep inside my heart. I am aspired to be a better group worker this year, but if no one tells me what to do then how am i going to help you out?
Gs. This module is the most boring thing ever. I dont want anything to do with politics anyway. I might be assassinated someday if i do so.
Physics. Not too bad. Chitra, who bravely stood up against Maxine, had fallen. Ah, and I learned that I'm smarter than the horse.
Pe. Handphone no. thingy. wanna die alr. i skipped one 9 round. I might be able to run one more round. But I felt like slacking all of a sudden and I skipped lah.
Went home and slept. eat a small set of food. I may die someday but i refused to eat those food.
Needed to finish IH for tmr. And im in a pinch right now, where to find mandarin oranges at this time?
tmr is last day alr. and it is two Chinese lessons for a good start.
looking forward to the bbq tmr. i'm pretty bored at home. playing game isnt fun anymore

My blog is dead. It is decaying.
I should employ some kind of necromancy to bring it back to life.
But what is the point of resurrecting it and letting it die once again?

As life goes on, I start to learn more and more about responsibility.
And I realize that everything I do is affecting people around me.
So I want to take this time out, to ...
Hey what do i want to do again?
Whatever...
I'm writing bullshit anyway.

I also can write about my daily life.
But trust me it's bloody boring.
And who would care about my life anyway?

I am bored with schoolwork.
The only thing i dont like at school is schoolwork.

MI test today.
I wrote, wrote, wrote, and wrote, and then continued writing, writing and writing...
I couldnt find a way to put in all the 5 bullets.
Scientific method...
After I spent my past ten years stuffing all kinds of science into my head..
Hume, Popper and Kuhn appeared from nowhere and told me everything...
Why they had to think so much..
They could live a normal life without thinking so hard.
And all the people would live together happily ever after without knowing that science is not objective and rational at all.

LA FSP
future problem solving.
Why people cant be a little more optimistic...
we should think of a better world, where people of all races and religions, robots or transhumans whatsoever share a same earth, live happily in harmony and blah blah blah.
Why we have to think of the future as a world of troubles, a world of calamities...
too bad we havent finished.
and we are the first to present.
...
im dead.

IH.
Project..
Field trip..
If i dont do anything I will die for sure.
But wait, I think im dead already.
Whatever....

IS...
Hmm, they are not rationally justified, and they are subjective also.
then we study them for what?
to pass the tests, to get good grades, to apply into good universities...
But if I forget that the angle between the two bonds in water molecule is 105 degree, would i screw up in life?
I think not lah.

Math
Calculus is breaking my mind.
Im not really scared, but altogether with along with all the other subjects, even maths bring trauma to my life.

PE
hahah today PE I didnt sweat a bit.
we were playing captain ball and I just have to stay in place to catch the ball.
Slacking through the period felt quite good.
I don't think I could play anyway.
My toe hurts.

Sooner or later my brain would explode.
Hope that Singapore survive through the explosion.









I went to Talentime.
The show was incredible, really really nice.
I LOVE it
I absolutely LOVE it.
I was mesmerized by the music.
Why the show only holds once a year?
But I was not happy with the prize though.
The first place groups were good, but i myself think others were nicer.
But I wasnt selected to be a judge anyway.
Maybe my ears were not good enough.



I write too much again.
and i fail to understand it again.
just like mi.
I should go and study.
better than keep staring at the screen.